DISCIPLINE AND DEVOTION
January 8, 2019
These two words say so much to me, in the past they were throw away words that I really didn't understand the depth of.
Discipline is one of the key ingredients to life, it is located in the place of all desires and creation, the sacrum or sacral chakra. I grew up not liking the word discipline, it left a really bad taste in my mouth, it was something I wanted to rebel against as I did not yet understand the meaning behind the discipline that was being taught to me.
Devotion is to be devoted to something you truely love, that love you find in the depths of your heart that is only felt when someone you love dies, a child is born or true love crosses your path. I have found devotion to myself, I have found that being devoted to myself I am more devoted to my life/family and everything I choose to touch.
My little girl inside, loves the sparkly things in life and the things that make beautiful sounds and the yummy things that taste so good in your mouth and the smells that take you away. I want to touch and feel all the wonderful things that life has to offer.
My life was full of those things, just to see me glow was enough for the world to provide me with all the delights I required to be full.
Isn't that all of us? Isn't that what we do to our children? This is not good or bad it just is.
One of the biggest challenges for me in my journey of growing up was letting go of the coating or mellowing my comfort, calming my desires to appreciate what is.
In my pursuit for always being satisfied I have created enormous amounts of pressure on my mind and creativity, wanting to be the master of all things, in lack and in wealth, creating skills to sew, cook, garden, teach, nurture, heal, communicate, lead, market, write, draw, paint and the list goes on..
My discipline had to show up, choose one thing and focus on it - even if you are doing that one thing for 10 minutes, an hour or a year, make it the best thing, stay present with it and then let it go as you move onto the next.
That is were devotion came in, be devoted to that one thing for the time you are with it.
This has become my Sadhana.